Addicted To Your Smile

 

Part 2

 

 

Your unhappy face

Scares me

But then you smile

And ensnare me

 

 

I’m infatuated

You’ve cast a spell

I can’t forget you now

I know this well

 

 

You laughed

I had to watch and stay

I’m trapped in time

And I just can’t look away

 

 

I’ve been caught in a cave

Bound like a dove

I’m in so deep

I think I’m in love.

 

Imperfection

 

 

Broken dolls

Shattered glass

In this world

Nothing lasts

 

 

Fragments of my mind

Sanity slipping

Torn into pieces

And the tears keep dripping

 

 

Cracked and empty

No strength in my heart

These bittersweet feelings

Rip my life apart

 

 

The messy place that is my soul

Shows true colors of neglect

And this world to me will be

Always imperfect.

Addicted To Your Smile

I'm addicted to your smile.
I can't help but stare.
What is this hold you have on me
It's not fair...

It's an obsession.
I want to know.
What's the inside secret,
That makes your eyes light up and glow.

And twinkle so I have to look.
What can I do.
I'm losing my sanity.
And it's all because of you

I love your smile.
Those twinkling eyes.
That contagious laugh.
That makes you cry.

 

Why is life so hard?
Was it really meant to be this way?
Cause I try and I try - but it's never enough.
It'll never be enough to make them happy.
What The Hell.
Why is my mood always so dark these days?
Rhetorical questions drive my crazy.
Melancholy.

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Trying so hard
Flying so high
Getting so far
And then I fall from the sky


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Okay I 'm sick of being so gloomy. This has to stop.

I'm losing it.
I like him, but I don't.
I'm so unsure - I'm afraid.
I watch, and then I look away and I try to figure out what this feeling is. Cause I don't know.
I think I like him. Then I don't.
Looks aren't enough for me. I want to know the personality.
I don't see the point of it. Even if I do like him, there is nothing in me to like.
But he's a drug. And like an addict - I just can't stop.
Watching him. Seeing him. Hearing him.
It's like I'm standing on the edge of a large abyss, about to fall in.
And I want to. How I want to. I want to escape.
These feelings that I don't understand are surely making me lose my control.
Not that I was ever sane to begin with. Or insane. More likely I was out sane.

This feeling tastes like cherries.

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"If I were the rain
Could I connect with someone's heart,
As the rain can unite
The eternally seperated earth and sky."

 - Bleach